The clinic assistant

I got a call from my clinic this Thurs morning and the conversation goes like this:

Clinic Assistant (CA): hello Miss Lim?
Me : yes speaking
CA : your test results are out
Me : oh, but I won't know how is it since Doc Eu is on leave this week right?
CA : not to worry! The test results only showed presence of bacteria.
Me : no blood trace?
CA: eh.... Hmm... (checking) .. Actually have..
Me: ( silent) *** faint****
CA: not to worry. U come on Monday and check with dr ok?

It certainly helped that the clinic assistant's voice is so assuring over the phone, I could temporary shelved this aside and peacefully enjoy this weekend before my meetup with doc on Monday. Seeing the CA in person will also cheer one up as she has a very cartoon face!

Fingers crossed

Brave

 

We caught the show Brave today since it has been a movie which I had looked forward to (being a Disney Pixar show), and heard a few good reviews.

 

The movie started with a short film 'La Luna' (aka Moon) which dictates how the crescent comes about. Interesting, they have told the story such that there was a team of 3 persons who were in charge of sweeping the moon each night. What they do is to sweep the shining stars which filled up the whole moon to one side of the moon and eventually a crescent is formed.. Ethan asked if this story is real during the short film.. This short film brings me back to the memories of reading one of the fairy tale stories.

 

Brave is a movie about the bonding between a Queen and her daughter (Merida). The Queen has been trying to groom her into a well-mannered princess while Merida is happy doing her archery on her horse. As the movie plot unfolds, Merida's mum turned into a bear due to a spell which Merida has asked a witch to do so and she eventually regrets her action. It was her repentance which eventually broke the spell and changed her mum back into human (together with her 3 other brothers).

 

Besides portraying the difference in expectations between parents and children, this show tells us about breaking the tradition, and being brave to change our destiny. One last quote from the movie is rather relevant in what I am going true now - 'Some say fate is beyond our command, but I know better.  Our destiny is within us.  You just have to be brave enough to see it'.

 

How true..

 

I have been trying not to think about the potential medical condition these days while waiting for my 2nd review to take place. What I'll probably need is the bravery to handle all that will happen when time comes.

 

 

Decisions

I realised that as I aged, the decision making process seems to have shortened. I grew up in a very independent environment since young. I made my own decision on which secondary school I wanted to attend after my PSLE exams, I made my choice of junior college after the O levels exams and made my choice of courses which I wanted to pursue in the university. Based on my impression, the decision making process seems to be done in a more conscientious manner when I made my first career choice upon graduation, before marriage, buying a house, planning the decor of the house, switching jobs, all during the period when I was in the twenties.

As I progressed now beyond mid-thirties, decisions tend to be done in a swift manner. I have shifted to the tendency of making decisions which goes with my heart, instead of being ruled by the head. Probably so, because, at this point of my life, I have learnt to accept that not all things have to fall into perfect place. There are times when things just don't happen the way you want them to and times when everything just works for you. What matters most, is whatever we choose, we hope to end up happier.

I have made up my mind on something in July and was still affirmative during the month of August. I had a moral obligation and hence decided to execute this task only in mid-Oct. A few incidents happened thereafter:
1) My recent health medical report had shown some negative indicators, which requires me to have a second review
2) personal environment was also pointing negatively to the execution idea

The recent chain of events seem to be signs for me to reconsider my earlier plan to change the route of my life. This point, I have to least have a clearance from the doctor on my current state of health, before making any changes.

Though, honestly, I was surprised with myself for being so decisive on my plan earlier, as it has been a lingering thought to do this for the last few years. There are now too many factors that seems to be stopping me and I will just have to shelf this idea aside for the next few months - next target date of execution will be scheduled to be in end March next year...